i am zawani badri

Chapter 1: The Gift

2012-03-05T12:09:00.000+08:00

Chapter 1: The Gift

I finished reading The Gift by Cecelia Ahern last Saturday (2nd of March 2012). Since my class was canceled, I decided to continue reading this book ever since I started a month ago. To be honest, I have made a wise decision to start my personal project with this one. This is actually a truly gift for everyone, especially for those who are always on-the-go until they even forget how to breathe. To be honest, Cecelia did a good job on this one, and she is actually doing a favour for those who do not know to prioritize between career and family. What is so fascinating about this book is that Cecelia is trying to emphasize on the value of time especially the time spent with the loved ones. Even nowadays many of us take the quality time that we should spend with our loved ones for granted, we dare to mortgage that most valuable time with workloads waiting on the office desk. But actually at the end of the day, even if the job does not want you anymore, you always have your loyal family members to wait you at the front door and be there through rough time. I am so afraid that one day I will be so workaholic until I put my family members aside, well I have that inherited in my blood. Today I might say that I will always put my family on top of the list, but as a human being,we always have the tendency to forget especially when we are at the top. We forget how to feel like to be on the ground. Cecelia is right, time cannot be packaged and ribboned and left under trees for Christmas morning. Time can't be given. But it can be shared. Thus, I really hope that If one day I forget how to feel like to be on the ground, someone will slap me hard with this thick book so that I will remember about this tale as one man's lesson is another man's tale, but often, a man's tale can be another's lesson, (Ahern, C., 2008).

sabar

2012-03-01T10:26:00.000+08:00

Those who spend [in Allah's Cause - deeds of charity, alms, etc.] in prosperity and in adversity, who repress anger, and who pardon men; verily, Allah loves Al-Muhsinun (the good-doers).

(3:134)

*senyum*

wordless wednesday

2012-02-22T12:54:00.000+08:00

well, not so kind, I guess. I was a victim of hit-and-run yesterday. Sadly, this happened in university compound, to be specific, at lecturer's parking area. Who's to blame now?

February has been kind to me

2012-02-20T11:36:00.001+08:00

Salam.

Well, it has been a long time since my last update. I have been busy with things.

I would like to thank someone and his family sebab sudi mencemar duli and came at visit us at Ampang yesterday . It has been a long time huh since you left Ampang. Thank you for the cakes (I have four cakes for my 24th birthday literally) and yummylicious-melt-in-your-mouth cheese tarts. Please tell your mother I am her big fan. Hihihi.

chocalate cake and the light brown one I am so sure (tak makan lagi tak sempat)

Cheese Tart. Thumbs up.

...and I'm also caught up with registration for my postgraduate study and the classes will start this week actually (wish me luck people). I am pretty nervous since I have to juggle between work and study, I am afraid that I bite off more than I can chew. Please pray for me, will you?

New ambiance.

p/s: It feels good though to meet like this rather than to go out just two of us. I'll become less mengada-ngada. Yesterday started roughly yet ended with a promising ending. May Allah ease everything for us. :)

syukur 24 part 2

2012-02-08T20:49:00.000+08:00

epilogue

2012-02-07T11:55:00.000+08:00

I am starting this project as a gift for myself for my 24th birthday. I just want to complete something in my life, something more personal and something that I enjoy the most throughout my entire life: reading. I love reading so much when I was a kid, that explains the thick eyeglasses that I have to wear ever since I was 9. I may stop reading in between that time, as books can be expensive for school kids with middle-class working parents. But the love for books and reading will never ever fade, I promise. I always dream to have a from-the-floor-to-ceiling-height mini library at my dream home, together with comfy armchair, ottoman and reading lamp. So, inspired by Julie and Julia the movie, I would like to challenge myself to read as many books as I can, (any kind of books) for the next 365 days, starting from my birthday. I might be really picky in terms of choosing my reading materials as I will not read certain genre or topics, but I will try my best to complete this challenge.

Before I end my very first entry, I would like to quote from one of my favourite writers, Cecelia Ahern in her book The Book of Tomorrow which I read last year. She said this:

"I think that most people go into bookshops and have no idea what they want to buy. Somehow, the books sit there, almost magically willing people to pick them up. The right person for the right book. It's as though they already know whose life they need to be a part of, how they can make a difference, how they can teach a lesson, put a smile on a face at just the right time."

I am eager to know how these books can make a difference in my life, Wish me luck people, hopefully I can see you again in the epilogue, Insyaallah.

syukur 24

2012-02-07T11:23:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah.

Takda tiup2 lilin.

Takda makan2 besar.

Ibu masakkan kari ayam untuk makan malam.

Alang belikan kek Secret Recipe dua potong dikongsi bersama adik.

Sambil tengak Papa I love you, sambil main Monopoly kat iPad.

Ibu belanja saya novels kat BookXcess 2 weeks ago.

Si dia nyanyikan Happy Birthday via Skype.

Kawan2 dan anak2 murid tak putus2

kirim doa melalui FB and Twitter.

Just the way I want it to be.

p/s: May Allah make ease of everything (rezeki, jodoh, urusan sehari2, ibadah) for us, make every wish comes true and shower us with His bless always.

wordless wednesday

2012-01-31T15:17:00.000+08:00

via Facebook

here we go again

2012-01-27T11:56:00.001+08:00

I'm a student one more time. Alhamdulillah berita baik pada hari baik. Moga semuanya baik-baik sahaja.

wordless wednessday

2012-01-25T21:15:00.000+08:00

Early 24th birthday present from Mommy :) can't wait to "launch" the next project in few weeks :)

Jodoh pertemuan ditangan Tuhan

2012-01-23T16:16:00.001+08:00

Catching-up session after the ceremony, somewhere at Bangi.

Kodak moment with the bride and the groom :)

The bride sang a song to the groom. Sweet isnt it?

[All pictures are taken from Teacher Ijah's FB]

These two are from my BB.

10 years seem like yesterday. May you two continue to love each other for the next thousands years and till Jannah, Insyaallah.

With one of my besties at MRSM Pendang. So sad Zaf couldn't make it to the wedding because she's at USA now. The last time I saw Teh was 5 years ago kot.

let's end this entry by reciting this doa for both of them :)

Doa Nabi Muhammad pada hari pernikahan puterinya Fatimah Azzahra dengan Ali bin Ali Talib

“ Semoga Allah menghimpunkan yang terserak dari keduanya, memberkati mereka berdua dan kiranya Allah meningkatkan darjat keturunan mereka menjadi pembuka rahmat, sumber ilmu dan hikmah serta pemberi rasa aman bagi umat “

[source]

Till we meet again, Salam.

Facebook: Bahan Bantu Mengajar?

2012-01-14T23:08:00.002+08:00

You answer it yourself.

As for me, it is somehow helpful as I can easily share ppt notes, docs with my students. I dont have to print them out and can be environmentalist as well :)

I am kind of fascinated with 'create group' feature on FB, in which my students will have their on group's page and I can share anything that I want with them. And thanks to Docs BETA, sharing lecture notes has been easy for me :)

As for me, I don't mind my students to add me as their friend at FB, as we have privacy setting and whatnot, you still can keep your private life separeted from your students. As for me, thanks to Twitter because Twitter is solely for my "social" friends :)

So after this students, you can still convince your parents that you're studying even you are on FB by simply clicking at your lecture's notes. So unfair, FB doesn't exist during my time!

p/s: Even Mark Zuckerberg designs FB for educational purpose at the first place. Don't quote this, I read this somewhere but I forgot the source :)

Love, Miss Wanie.

The hearer of all

2012-01-12T15:14:00.002+08:00

Allah is the greatest.

He always listens even when we only speaks to ourselves.

He knows what's in our minds.

He knows the best.

:')

iPhone4s s****

2012-01-12T09:36:00.003+08:00

People are going gaga about iPhone 4s nowadays and it is somehow the greatest invention in the world (at the moment I'm typing this entry). But does this greatest invention has no drawbacks? I read here that Siri actually swears! It's kind of cool if you are a teenager who has just hit puberty of something but it is totally terrifying especially for parents, isn't?

[credit]

If you ask me whether can technology replace human, it's definitely a No because technology does not have something 'between the ears' but technology does improve our life :)

what say you?

p/s: sorry for an inappropriate tittle, i am nothing against iPhone 4s, in fact, I am beyond happy if I have one :)

wordless wednesday

2012-01-11T10:14:00.001+08:00

[source]

p/s: teringin nak duit mas kahwin nnt gubah macam ni :)

♥ o x

who wants to be a millionare?

2012-01-10T11:53:00.001+08:00

[credit]

Then you should read Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert T. Kiyosaki. It is totally a must-have book by everyone. I am totally fascinated by the idea of teaching your kids about financial management, in which, it is something that is put aside in our society. It's kind of irony about how the writer's poor dad's thinking is similar to most parents in Malaysia. You should learn, get better education and get better a job with better payment yet we put aside the value of the lesson itself. I keep on asking myself a lot of questions about how to be rich and you will definitely find all the answers of all your questions.

I keep on asking what is asset and the true and honest answer is in page 152.

"Invest first in education. In reality, the only real asset you have is your mind, the most powerful tool we have dominion over. Each of us has the choice of what we put in our brain once we're old enough. You can watch TV, read golf magazines, or to ceramics class or a class on financial planning. You choose. Most people simply buy investments rather than first investing in learning about investing." (Kiyosaki, R.T.)

Definitely worth every penny you've spent and hopefully bring more penny once you finish reading it :)

p/s: Thanks to Sir Ku for lending me this book :)

♥ o x

amanah

2012-01-09T10:56:00.005+08:00

In the course, we first learned what to look for in a spouse. Basically, deen is utmost priority. Marry a man who prays, who respects his religion, who is honest and trustworthy. Marriage is a transfer of amanah, from the girl’s dad passed on to the husband, so good guys will know that they should not take it lightly and they will take care of this girl like precious gold. They should know their duties and rights as husbands, and likewise. Cos in the hereafter, as a leader of the family, you better know what to answer to God about what you did or didn’t do to her. God knows it’s hard to find men like this right now.

One thing that really hit me that the speaker said: “If you marry someone who doesn’t even fear God, you think he or she will fear the responsibilities he or she has towards you?”

-via Proudduck

mahar

2012-01-04T12:01:00.000+08:00

I chatted with my uni friend, Diana and we talked about marriage stuff and hantaran kahwin in which people nowadays are crazily selling their daughters with the standard price of RM20k and according to their educational level. But we somehow forget about the 'menanggung dosa isteri' part isn't it?

What I mean here is that, when it comes to wedding, we focus more on duniawi part rather than getting Allah's bless. Don't you think so? We have in mind that wedding is once-in-a-life-time event and it's okay sometimes to put aside 'hereafter' part.

Blame the entertainment industry, shall we?*kidding*

♥ o x

someone turns 24 today

2012-01-02T12:29:00.001+08:00

May you find the love of your life this year and live happily ever after :)

p/s: I love you.

♥ o x

untuk kamu

2012-01-01T17:19:00.001+08:00

erk byknya typo, but then as long as the receiver understands the message, i'm beyond happy :)

it's a wrap!

2011-12-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

2011

January

I am a busy final-year student!

February

My powdery 23rd birthday!

Fundfair!

Terima Kasih Cinta teater

March

Branding Youthself Conference

April

Malam Pra Graduan

May

Saying good bye :'(

welcome to the world, sayang!

June, July

my current bread and butter

August

Raya :)

September

Melaka Trip with girlfriends

Noure's big day :)

October

Saying good bye to two of my colleagues :'(

November

Graduation!

Welcome Insyirah :)

December

Penang Trip and Azie's big day

It has been a topsy-turvy ride for me this year. Above all, I am thankful every single thing that I have been through this year and honestly, I am blessed with beautiful souls around me and most importantly, I always believe that Allah has given the best for me :) Thank you 2011 for everything! I am not the person who loves to make resolutions for new year (i prefer to do it on my birthday), yet my only wish that I will have a great time next year like I have this year!

See you guys next year!

2012, bring it on, bebeh!

♥ o x

from South to North with lots of love part II

2011-12-30T16:11:00.000+08:00

Beautiful blue sky

Georgetown :)

Fact checked!

Single ladies to grab! :)

I am not in the picture and I am not the one who is taking it *sobs*

Beavers!

Beautiful bride AGAIN! :)

mini gathering and catching up session with TESLians.

My favourite counselling friend - Dianne

With cikguchopstick's mom and baby sister at Feringgi Night Market

Window Shopping?

That's the wrap for my Penang Trip entry :) see u again next year, perhaps?

from South to North with lots of love

2011-12-29T10:43:00.000+08:00

Salam.

The Penang Trip was super duper awesome! Thanks to cikguchopstick and her family for bringing me there. I owe them big time and may Allah bless these beautiful souls with prosperous life and happiness until Jannah. Congrats to gorgeous bride Azie too! May you two continue to love and cherish each other until Jannah as well! Enjoy the piccas! :)

Penang Bridge!

Beautiful bride with her friends who are patiently waiting to be next :)

Single-but-not-so-sure-whether-she-is-available-or-not Mimi :)

Meet Diana as well! Only Allah knows how much I miss this girl :)

will update more pictures from cikguchopstick's camera soon :)

Vacay for FREE!

2011-12-20T12:07:00.000+08:00

I went to ALAM Melaka last weekend and to tell you nothing but the truth the place is AHH-Mazing! Beautiful scenery plus cute seafarer-to-be will surely make your weekend *senyum miang*. And bagai orang mengantuk disorong bantal, me, Apis and Ban (Apis's colleague and my TESL mate) was offered kayaking by their students' Jurulatih Jasmani (they call him JJ - cute isn't it?) and it is FREE! Sea kayaking is much more fun compared to kayaking at the lake. Then, all three of us soaked in the water for a while and we were asked to wear life jacket! It is kind of funny to wear that at shallow water since we are old enough :) It was definitely a good gateway after a long and stressful working days!

p/s: thanks to Apis and Ban for the hospitality!

wedding can be contagious

2011-12-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

...and I am afraid that I might get infected.

because I am so not ready :s

not-so-current lullaby

2011-12-10T16:08:00.000+08:00

wordless wednesday

2011-12-07T09:05:00.000+08:00

T_T

bread and butter

2011-12-06T09:17:00.001+08:00

I don't know why, but ever since I teach six months ago, my English language becomes stagnant. I miss being a student as the language used by the lecturer and in the textbook is one level up than mine. Since this is my bread and butter, I have to do something or else I'll be dead meat.

p/s: I should read more.

A hedge between keeps friendship green.

2011-12-05T11:57:00.001+08:00

I could not find words that can exactly describe the friendship between me and cikguchopstik. But I have been thinking of these two things over the weekend and these are the best way to put things into words.

1. She does not mind hanging and folding my undergarments, (sometimes, she will do the laundry for me). I'll do the same to her, even to her family members.

2. I just realized that the colour of her car is similar like mine. Gold. I just noticed this when I was about to park mine and I saw hers in the side mirror.

It is very difficult for me sometimes to express how much I value this friendship. She is one of the god-given friends who I should cherish for the rest of my life. She is irreplaceable. Btw babe, thank you for the weekend, good luck with your kids! I believe that u can change the world, their world. :)

♥ o x

oldies

2011-12-02T10:35:00.001+08:00

The 1st - Amad's, 2nd-Kak Ila's and 3rd-Mine!

The Internet connection was not available yesterday, me and my colleagues were super bored (as we cant read beautifulnara like we used to every day) and decided to do it like the old time. Playing around with Paint. :) we surely had a good time and Alhamdulillah I managed to brush up my khat skills (and my knowledge of Jawi letters) as well!

p/s: I bet kids nowadays will be lunatic when they dont have Internet connection! Boo~

walimah

2011-11-29T15:12:00.001+08:00

Ibu kept on asking me when I want to get married last weekend,
I asked her to be the main sponsor.
She said that if she sponsored my wedding,
she wanted my first child.
She wants to play with her grandchildren so badly.
...and I called her Rumpelstiltskin :)

p/s: when the time is right, things will fall into place. Sabar :)

♥ o x

wordless wednesday

2011-11-23T10:41:00.001+08:00

When you miss someone who is far from you, will you do almost everything just to feel that he's near to you?

Thank You Google Maps.

p/s: rindu setengah mati *exaggerate*

gentle reminder

2011-11-22T11:03:00.001+08:00

"Don’t waste your time on people who gossip,

people who talk bad about others,

and people who complain about life.

These aren’t happy people. I read somewhere a very meaningful quote,

“Don’t judge someone by what people say about them.

Judge them by what they say about others.”

So always keep ourselves in check too.

Be careful what you say about others."

- Vivy Yusof via Proudduck

penyakit baru

2011-11-21T13:57:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Baru balik dari Johor. Thanks to my babe, cikguchopstick, angah and the whole family for the wonderful weekend. Surely will come again tak kira lah ada ke takda orang kat Pasir Gudang itu. Sangat gembira dapat peluk cium Syiera walaupun sekejap. Lepas lah rindu dendam di dada. Merujuk kepada tajuk entry, I always experience weird penyakit after meeting *cough* him. The symptoms are:-

1) Tak ade mood to do almost everything. Macam nak duduk dalam selimut berselubung tidur sepanjang hari. Melampau is it? To make it worst, today is the beginning of new semester.

2) Hilang selera makan. Kalau orang tak paksa mmg malas nak makan.

3) Termenung dan berfikir secara extreme.

4) Kurang gemar bercakap. Due to no. 3 punya symptom.

5) Merengek2 hentak2 kaki sampai tahap nak lempang. (Ini dengan org tertentu sahaja jgn risau)

Ha lebih kurang macam putus cinta lah symptom dia. Dan symptom tersebut berlarut sehingga 2-3 hari atau seminggu paling lama. Patut nya lepas meeting *cough* mestilah bersemangat mata bersinar-sinar bak mentari pagi menyinari alam semester. Is this normal for Long Distance Relationship? Or ini adalah salah satu mainan hati je in which akal kalah to take over this disturbing feeling. *mengeluh*

*update*

Dah dua orang tegur cakap muka pucat tak sihat. Apa kes kau nie? *lempang muka sendiri*

p/s: dear you, thank you for always bersabar. U're worth the wait :)

Sent by DiGi from my BlackBerry® Smartphone

mati itu pasti

2011-11-14T10:05:00.000+08:00

Saya bersyukur sebab Allah sempat kenalkan saya dengan Allahyarham. Saya jumpa Allahyarham masa 2 Oktober 2011, masa invigilate exam students AD. Waktu jaga exam, dia tnya nama FB saya and terus add. Mendengar cerita Allahyarham masa jaga exam hari itu membuatkan saya berazam untuk terus cekal seperti Allahyarham. Allahyarham sangat berdedikasi dengan tugas yang diberikan. Allahyarham tidak ambil lewa. Allahyarham telefon sana sini sebab nak dapatkan kepastian mengenai kertas soalan. Allahyarham marah students yang tidak berpakaian kemas walaupun exam tersebut hari Ahad. Allahyarham buat laporan seorang student yang tersalah bawa slip peperiksaan semasa peperiksaan. Allahyarham tak pandang sebelah mata. Walaupun kenal tidak lebih tiga jam, saya tahu Allahyarham seorang pendidik yang tidak dapat ditukar ganti. Saya rasa ini satu kehilangan besar. Seusai peperiksaan, Allahyarham dengan gembira beritahu dia akan ke KL melihat isteri yang sedang berpantang dan anak yang masih kecil. Dia siap tunjuk gambar Insyirah (anak Allahyarham) kepada saya masa invigilate.

Kepada Encik Rasfan Abu Kassim, moga roh anda ditempatkan dikalangan orang beriman. You're a great educator.

Al-Fatihah.

♥ o x

111111

2011-11-11T09:38:00.001+08:00

Tarikh cantik, hari baik (Jumaat).

I'm just want to say that I'm blessed with wonderful family and friends. She is one of them. Moga dengan rasa ini tidak membuatkan saya leka dan alpha dalam menunaikan kewajipan saya padaNya. Moga saya tidak lupa mengucapkan syukur dengan setiap rahmat rezeki kurniaanNya. Moga saya terus ingat Dia akan senantiasa ada mendengar doa dan rintihan saya. Moga rasa ini tidak terus pergi meninggalkan saya kerana kekhilafan saya sendiri yang asyik dengan dunia.

Dear Inshirah, thank you for being part of my life (05/11/11)

So verily, with the hardship, there is relief. Verily, with the hardship, there is relief. (5&6, Al-Inshirah)

p/s: motif letak gambar ini adalah kerana terdelete satu entri masa grad. :'(

♥ o x

kerja rumah oleh bakal guru

2011-11-10T10:56:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum Sir Taufik. Ini kerja Sir saya dah buat. :)

TERMS & CONDITIONS:

1.You must post these rules.
2.Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3.Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post. And create eleven new questions for the people you tagged to answer.
4.You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post.
5.Go to their page and tell them you have tagged HIM/HER
6.No tag back!
7.No stuff in the tagging section about "YOU ARE TAGGED IF YOU ARE READING THIS" YOU LEGITIMATELY (a.k.a REALLY, TRUST, WITH ALL HONESTY) have tagged 11 people.

a) 11 things about me:-

1. A Muslim.

2. Not a girl not yet a woman (thanks Britney for the idea).

3. The one and only daughter among three anak bujangs.

4. An Educator.

5. A Lover ( patiently waiting to be a wife and a mother).

6. Bookworm.

7. A friend.
8. I love gadget.
9. Enjoy cooking but suck at baking.
10. A Family person.
11. A wear-my-heart-on-my-sleeve person

b) Soalan Cepucemas:-

1. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
- Erk...Next question please?

2. What makes you unique?
- Being myself.

3. The last time you were angry? Why?
-Can't recall any.

4. Are you a giver or a taker? Why?
- I think I am a giver. I love the feeling when I can make others happy.

5. Your favourite hangout? Why?
- My HOME. I don't think I should explain this.

6. What is your favourite mistake?
-Falling in love with the wrong guy.

7. What were you doing before doing this?
-I was doing some "office" work. :)

8. What and who are you afraid of?
- Allah s.w.t and losing His bless.

9. Your childhood nickname.
- Hurm. The weirdest nickname that my friend gave to me is "Zaw" because of to many wani in the class.

10. Your most embarrassing moment.
-Hurm. Meeting a guy with a beautiful smile wearing the same kurung. He might be thinking I am too lazy to do laundry.

11. What was the strangest dream you ever had?
- Two days ago. I dreamt of my friend texted me and the next day she texted me for real :o

c. So my questions. (Actually they are not mine because I googled it)

1. What is the last book you read?

2. What was the last movie you went to see?

3. If someone wrote a biography about you, what do you think the tittle should be?

4. If you had six months to live, what would you do with the time?

5. If you were a type of food, what type of would you be?

6. Who do you like best, your mom or dad?

7.What kinf of people do you dislike?

8. On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you?

9. How would you describe yourself in three words?

10. What accomplishments were you proud of?

11. If you could change an event in history, what would it be?

...and the luckiest person to answer these questions are... *drum rolls*

1. noure
2. khay
3. khal
4. paani
5. Apis
6.Meera
7. Aini
8. Nashrah
9. Azila
10. Hajar
11. Wan Nurul Aini

p/s: Harap Sir Taufik bagi saya banyak bintang :)

♥ o x

buku esok

2011-10-24T17:05:00.001+08:00

Done reading another masterpiece from Cecelia Ahern, though it took quite sometime to finish this book (to be honest I dont like the story at first, probably because I read it in chunk) but, I love the ending vefy much. These are some beautiful phrases from the book that I want to share with you guys :)

1) All families have their secrets, most people, most people would never know them, but they know there are spaces, gaps where the answers sbould be, where someome should have sat, where someone used to be.

2) I think that most people go into bookshops and have no idea what they want to buy. Somehow, the books sit there, almost magically willing people to pick them up. The right person for the right book. It's as though they already know whose life they need to be a part of, how they can make a difference, how they can teach a lesson, put a smile on a face at just the right time.

(Cecelia Ahern, 2009)

R.I.P

2011-10-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

Scarlett 2009-2011.

I am so sorry for being a terrible mommy, I accidentally dunked you in salty Pengkalan Balak ocean. It was an accident, I swear, though I have an intention to get a new baby [previously], I've never thought it would be this soon. Thanks for the most wonderful two years, you'd been good :')

*blow nose*

Since Scarlett is kaput, I have to get a new baby as soon as possible as Scarlett was my "official" phone (for working purpose). So, I would like to welcome baby Berry to my life. Please be good okay?

p/s: I am gadget geek!

♥ o x

kecewa

2011-10-19T11:33:00.002+08:00

It's kind of devastating when you know that your students are not entitled to continue their study next semester.

I believe that when it comes to education, every one deserves a second chance. But then, I always remind myself that I have done my best. They did not fail my subject, I have helped them as much as I could. I wish that I can see them for the last time, tell them that I still believe that they can be successful in future, may be not here, but somewhere else. I do not want them to stop searching for knowledge, I do not want them to feel like it's the end of every thing. I somehow know how it feels.

Dear students, once you are my students, you guys will always have my doa

*wipe tears*

when a total stranger makes my day

2011-10-17T10:45:00.001+08:00

do you believe that a total stranger can brighten the whole day of yours?

This morning I went to work by bus instead of car, and I bumped into a guy who works at the bus terminal. Actually he wanted to enter his work station with a mop in his hand and I blocked his way. My friend asked me to move aside and I said to him "Laaa kenapa tak cakap nak masuk." He just smiled.

Then, I peeked at the calendar at his workstation, and I could feel like he was looking at me doing that. I quickly turned around, instead. Then, my friend who was standing in front of me saw him smiling, perhaps, he knew that I was so shy for doing that.

When the bus arrived , me and my my friend hopped on the bus and I chose to sit by the window. And when the bus was about to depart, I saw him again, smiling from ear to ear at me. With a pair of cute dimples, my heart skipped a beat, to be honest. *sweetest smile*

Now I believe that a total stranger can make our day :)

p/s: mati lah kalau orang itu baca ini *gulp*

wordy wednesday

2011-10-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

Salam,

1. How to start my wordy Wednesday posy eyh? First and foremost, I have been busy with a lot of thinking [kot], that explains why I rarely update my blog.

2. Yup, when you are in the stage of not-a-girl-not-yet-a-woman [sing it like Britney] stage, you are somehow forced to be an adult, and being a responsible adult, you have to THINK about a lot of things. [it's rhyme!]

3. Okay, let's talk about future, shall we? To be honest, my future is vague, I used to be a person that is very certain with what I want in life, even my colleague can tell, just by seeing my signature! To be honest, if someone asks me how I see myself in 10 years from now, surely I do not have any idea how to answer that question. [boo!]

4. Yes, my life has been completely stagnant right now. It's not like I am not enjoying it till the max [as I should], but I think every single thing happened so fast and I am not good with changes. I count days, not dates. I do not even bother what is the date today. I am not sure whether it is good or not.

5. But, I should be thankful for people who have always got my back [May Allah bless their kindness]. I should be grateful for that :) And I should also be grateful because Allah has always showed me the way, though sometimes I have not been an obedient slave for Him. [I should improve on that

!]. Yes, everything happened for a reason and I should always remember that. If it is not turned out as I planned, I know that Allah has better plan for me :')

6. It's almost the end of 2011, and I have been through a lot! [phew] and I know there is more to come in the near future, I am hoping that November and December will be kind to me though, and hopefully I can find ways and answers that I have been searching for right now. Yes, I know that Allah will always listen to our doa even though we are running out of words to say it.

7. Definitely no walking down the aisle in the near future. But hoping that if the time is right, Allah will ease everything for us. :)

[I am trying to be realistic and optimist here!]

p/s: I really need to put things in perspective. *inhale positivity, exhale negativity*

koleksi keluh kesah

2011-10-10T22:32:00.002+08:00

1) saya mahu sehelai tshirt labuh lengan panjang cantik baru yang berharga RM42.

2) Saya rasa saya perlu baju baru sebab saya dah lama tak beli baju baru.

3) RM50 untuk sehelai baju sangat tidak berbaloi.

4) Lebih baik beli buku dapat 2 3 buah dapat ilmu.

5) Kenapa semua barang mahal sekarang?

6) Jangan bagi saya bunga masa saya graduasi nanti.

7) Duit beli bunga baik belikan buku untuk saya.

8) Bunga nanti layu pastu buat kumpul habuk pastu tempat terakhir adalah tong sampah.

9) Perut saya dari semalam sakit.

10) Perut sensitif. Kulit sensitif. Hati sensitif.

11) Saya juga perlukan flats untuk pakai pergi mengajar. Tak larat pakai kasut tinggi hari2.

12) Bila lah nak habiskan novel yang tengah baca itu?

13) Saya perlu tidur sekarang.

14) Saya perlu bangun pagi esok.

15) Saya perlu berhenti mengeluh dan bersyukur. Dah2 nak berhenti lah ni.

p/s:kthanksbye!

perfect weekend

2011-10-08T19:25:00.000+08:00

thanks for the skype date, babe. Our bodies might be miles apart but not our hearts,aite?

2011-10-07T20:54:00.003+08:00

wordless wednessday

2011-10-05T08:51:00.000+08:00

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p/s: it looks like menstrual cycle is less painful, isn't it?

la tahzan

2011-10-01T08:52:00.000+08:00

one of my friends shares this with me via FB chat and I would love to share it with u guys *love*

Ketika Allah rindu pada hambaNya, Ia akan mengirimkan sebuah hadiah istimewa melalui malaikat Jibril yang isinya adalah ujian. Dalam hadits qudsi Allah berfirman: " Pergilah pada hambaKu lalu timpakanlah b'bagai ujian padanya kerana Aku ingin m'dengar rintihannya " ( HR Thabrani dari Abu Umamah )

p/s: Terima Kasih Nurul 'Izzah, sayang kamu ketat-ketat.

fix me please

2011-09-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

Crying for help *dying*

wordless wednesday

2011-09-28T17:39:00.000+08:00

bila stress dengan key in markah students, kami pilih cendol tepi jalan lemak berkrim pada tengahari buta :)

what shoud I do?

2011-09-26T09:41:00.001+08:00

On my way back to Alor Gajah yesterday, I called my mom just to tell her that I was safely aboard.

Then she told me that my Ayahwan* was admitted to hospital and she needed to rush back to Alor Setar immediately.

*tears stream down on my face*

Days before, my mom called Ayahwan and he told her this:

"Aku asyik teringat kat anak hang yang Wanie tu, tak tau pasai pa."

Then my mother asked me did i call him or not. I rarely call him because I do not know what to say. Language barrier due to I do not really understand northern dialect. Ayahwan used to fetch me from Shahab Perdana to Pendang when I was at secondary school. He also used to visit me and bring me food and clean water supply during weekend. I rarely went back to his house as he is staying with my step grand mother. We are good though.

May be this is the least that I can do, whoever that reads this, can you guys pray for my Ayahwan? May Allah answer all your doas and repay your kindness.

*wipe tears away*

note: Ayahwan* = my grandfather

sending positivity (in case you need it)

2011-09-22T07:39:00.000+08:00

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The Heights

2011-09-20T11:20:00.001+08:00

Wahai anak-anak Adam! Sesungguhnya Kami telah menurunkan kepada kamu (bahan-bahan untuk) pakaian menutup aurat kamu, dan pakaian perhiasan; dan pakaian yang berupa taqwa itulah yang sebaik-baiknya. Yang demikian itu adalah dari tanda-tanda (limpah kurnia) Allah (dan rahmatNya kepada hamba-hambaNya) supaya mereka mengenangnya (dan bersyukur).

(Surah Al-A'raf, ayat 27)

I am reading this at Toots's blog and I am totally speechless.

I used to have this urge inside, but to be honest I lack of Istiqamah.

Allah always loves me and shows me the way. Saya malu. :'(

backpacker mode on

2011-09-18T12:43:00.000+08:00

great holiday, great people, great memories to be remembered forever! :)

kawan sampai mati ye kawans :)

old newspaper

2011-09-15T23:27:00.001+08:00

Me and my collegues attended [read: forced to attend ] a workshop conducted by the Star entitled NiE (Newspaper in Edu). Though at first I was halfhearted to attend this workshop because there was a Sambutan Merdeka Raya UiTM KAG going on at the same time, I must admit that I was enjoying myself doing all the activities in the workshop. I should thank 3 cups of Nescafe Ice [the one from the Nescafe lorry/van - yummilicious I know] for making me hyper. =.="

See see my tak ikhlas face?

See the effect of caffeine on us? All the tak ikhlas faces turned to this!

The Sunshine Girls! *cheer*

Some of the activities during the workshop. I must say that newspaper is the cheapest, accessible, authentic and practical teaching materials for English language lesson (unless you buy a copy for each and everyone of your students, then it becomes expensive lah). In fact, we can recycle the old newspaper and preserve the environment. #gogreen

Thanks to three cuppas of Nescafe Ice, we got these gifts from the organizer as we participated in the activities "enthusiastically" and got 10/10 correct answers for the last activity *hurray*

Where did we get the Nescafe Ice? During the intermission. The organizer allowed the participants to go to the Sambutan Merdeka Raya for 30 minutes and I must say that we had spent our time very well! We managed to get a picture with Dato' Rektor and be the "unofficial" ambassadors for Nescafe! :)

[all pictures credit to Pinkora]

p/s:Look forward to the weekend! :)

wordless wednessday #3 part 2

2011-09-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

[credit to Pinkora]

Terima kasih daun keladi, bila nak buat makan-makan lagi?

wordless wednesday #3

2011-09-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

BM1111D

AC1101D

AC1201C

*the guy in red shirt and fair skin [effect lampu je lebih tu] is their MAT's lecturer*

Merekalah racun, merekalah penawar :')

wedding bell rings again

2011-09-10T12:31:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my very 1st time attending a total stranger's engagement party.

It was my housemate's cousin engagement party and by chance, I met a Mak Andam in which I think the coolest Mak Andam ever. She is a typical mid-age lady and very sporting. She shared a lot of tips for future bride in which I find it very useful :)

1) She advised the soon-to-be bride to focus on solemnization rather than bersanding. Reason: All eyes are on you during the batal air sembahyang moment, and family members will be at your side compared to bersanding.

2) For hantaran: choose gifts that can last long and you can use in daily basis. For example, very expensive and high-quality watch, telekung, Al-Quran, Sejadah and the remaining budget should be spent for jewelery (for upacara batal air sembahyang). She even advised not to spend the hantaran by buying things like shoes, handbags and perfume because pakai sekejap je.

3) She also recommend future bride to choose the mak andam yang boleh buat kawan. Not the one who sends his/her assistance or staff.

p/s: Can I have her as my mak andam? *berangan*. By the way, there is no wedding agenda in my near future planning (yet), I just love every single thing about wedding (dont blame me for being a typical young lady)

fashion friday #2

2011-09-09T13:57:00.001+08:00

I rarely splurge on clothing and everything in between.

So, I allocated only RM200 to shop for Hari Raya and these are some of the things I bought with the budget:-

2 pairs of kurungs (I only wore one of them for the 1st raya) - RM115

lace for detailing - RM16 (sewed them myself)

dark grey satin shawl from Jalan Masjid India - RM 18

purple embroidered bawal - RM11

purple bag with lace detailing from Jalan Masjid India -RM25

dual tone jersey inner -RM 16

TOTAL = RM201

But I must say that I spent the RM200 wisely though. I got two pairs of baju kurungs what! :)

my personal favourite raya picture! Happy Friday!

Allah loves me

2011-09-07T19:33:00.001+08:00

I was at my lowest point just now.

Feel like talking to someone but no one to turn to.

Suddenly my phone rang and it was my mom.

Though at first I refused to tell her everything,

she managed to korek until I burst into tears and told her everything.

At the end of the conversation, she told me this:

"Sekarang ibu perasan Angah dah jarang mengaji Al-Quran. Mengajilah selalu."

At that moment, i know that Allah still loves me no matter what. He will always be there whenever I need someone the most.Syukur.

:')

driving for dummies

2011-09-06T18:33:00.002+08:00

For me, driving is SUCK!

I do not know what is wrong with me, perhaps some part of my brain does not restore how to drive. I failed my JPJ test four times and I got my license because the officer was so kesian with me [or my parents because they have to pay a fortune in order to get me a driving license].

But today, I know I have to drive. Must. My housemate was in the state of hyperventilation just now because of panic attack. Among four of us, she is the only competent driver that we have. During that chaotic moment, I forced my self to drive. To control the movement and operation of a vehicle. From that moment, I know I have to be brave to drive.

Sigh.

p/s: doakan saya.

[source]

wordless wednesday #2

2011-08-24T09:24:00.001+08:00

If you guys know me, I am suck at drawing, inikan pula guna paint kan? I was doodling this while waiting for my students to finish their grammar test, it was Friday's evening class and my heart was already home. So, I would like to wish you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)

the green packet

2011-08-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

am giving my students the "green packet" for Raya.

Definitely not money.

You guys want to see their reactions?

p/s: I think I am the most psychotic lecturer they have ever met in their entire lives *smirk*

fashion friday #1

2011-08-19T10:01:00.000+08:00

So I'm in dilemma actually,

Years go, my aunt give me a purplish kain ela kebaya and being me, I do not fancy wearing kebaya due to several reasons. Being a full-sized woman, wearing a kebaya is a NO-NO for me as it makes me feel uncomfortable. I had a kebaya once during my secondary school year, but I gave it to my mom because I do not like wearing it.

Since this kain ela is a present, so it is not good to not appreciating people's gift. So, I decided to wear it during my one of my special days in life which is my convocation day in October. Unfortunately, I am still not able to shed some weights [due to hormonal problem] so that I can squeeze myself in the tiny, body-fitting baju kebaya. Yes, I can send the kain ela to the tailor and still make a baju kebaya of myself but still I do not want to because I have set in my mind that I am not wearing kebaya AGAIN.

To buy a new, decent baju kurung will cost me fortune as I am saving for my master. Plus, the convocation fee is quite expensive as well. Therefore, I decided to turn the baju kebaya to baju kebarung instead *wink*

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I am planning to place all the sulam-sulam part [inside the red area] at the end of the kebarung [the baju part] and leave the upper part of the baju plain.

[source]

this is not the kain ela, but the sulam-sulam part is more or less like this.

[source]

...and pair that soon-to-be baju kebarung with this classic brooch for kebaya.

A bit over the top but I do not care, it's my day :) and perhaps I can wear this during my other special days like E-day yada yada yada so that I can save money as well :)

Will be going to tailor shop this weekend! Yeay!

hari minggu lepas

2011-08-18T15:29:00.001+08:00

Hari Jumaat minggu lepas, Acik [atau adik bapa saya] telah berbaik hati untuk belanja kami sekeluarga berbuka puasa di De Palma, Ampang. Due to last minute reservation, meja adalah belakang-belakang dan tak dapat cuci mata melihat jejaka kacak. Tapi takpa yang peting makanan :)

main course: Nasi Minyak [kot?] ayam masak madu [kot?] rendang ayam, kobis goreng ala2 kat kedai mamak tue and ikan keli masak sambal. Ikan keli tak sedap. Rendang ayam sedap. Ayam madu pun tak berapa sedap.

Dessert [ke?] agar-agar warna warni adalah sedap! hebat lah siapa buat agar-agar ni! dragon fruit tak fresh.

Nie koktail buah [kot?] okay-okay je

Kesimpulan: Makanan so-so je, yang seronok sebab dapat kumpul2 sembang2 borak2, lama tak jumpa kan sejak kerja ni :)

Salute kepada pengusaha tepung pelita ni, instead of using polistrin, mereka [kot?] recycle kotak and buat bekas letak kuih ini. Sedap pulak tu :)

On Saturday, it was my turn to take over my mum's kitchen as Alang requested me to cook ikan masak tiga rasa [mengidam la tu]. Maka ini lah hasilnya:-

Begedil tuna, kredit kepada [cik meera edora] Nanti kena tanya tuan punya badan boleh tak nak tempek resepi kat sini.

Kangkung goreng belacan

The biggest durian I have ever seen in my entire life! Makan seulas je pun gas dia makaih!

Close up

Ikan Siakap Tiga Rasa

Alhamdulillah rezeki bulan Ramadhan, penuh meja, hati pun penuh dengan kasih sayang, sebab bulan puasa je berkesempatan nak makan bersama-sama dan makanan semua air tangan ibu. I don't fancy outside foods during Ramadhan. Ibu dah didik begitu sejak kecil.

Sekian sahaja laporan hari minggu minggu lepas. Moga ketemu lagi pada masa akan datang. Update blog pun sbb nak test power broadbang baru upgrade :)

Kurangkan kontroversi tingkatkan prestasi, dah nak dekat sepuluh terakhir ni :)

2011-08-17T14:40:00.002+08:00

Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

أَلَمْ نَشْرَحْ لَكَ صَدْرَكَ
Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan untukmu dadamu?,

وَوَضَعْنَا عَنْكَ وِزْرَكَ
Dan Kami telah menghilangkan dari padamu bebanmu,

الَّذِي أَنْقَضَ ظَهْرَكَ
yang memberatkan punggungmu?

وَرَفَعْنَا لَكَ ذِكْرَكَ
Dan Kami tinggikan bagimu sebutan (nama)mu.

فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا
Kerana sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan,

إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا
sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.

فَإِذَا فَرَغْتَ فَانْصَبْ
Maka apabila kamu telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), kerjakanlah dengan sungguh-sungguh (urusan) yang lain,

وَإِلَى رَبِّكَ فَارْغَبْ
dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah hendaknya kamu berharap.

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beautiful indeed. will often recite this sura in my prayer :)

kita hanya mampu merancang, Allah yang menentukan

2011-08-12T09:03:00.002+08:00

This is what I have been planning for the time being, to continue my study to the next level ~~sementara tunggu orang masuk meminang.~~ So I think it's better for me to gather all the scattered information here and share it with you guys. I am still considering these two options. Should perform istikharah, I guess.

LINK 3

nota kaki: walaupun UiTM di hatiku, I couldn't afford the fee since I'm planning to use my own money. Harap dapat istiqamah save duit every month. Yes, I am stingy now!

2011-08-01T00:57:00.001+08:00

Semua benda yang jadi bersebab.
Kadang-kadang Tuhan nak tunjuk dekat kita
supaya kita boleh selesaikan masalah.
Supaya kita boleh teruskan hidup.
Kalau bukan untuk diri sendiri pun,
untuk orang yang kita sayang.

(Sekali Lagi, 2011)

:'(

to my little princess of joy and protected by Allah

2011-07-31T10:06:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st Birthday, sayang!

p/s: you're always my favourite :)

bola itu bulat, bukan empat segi

2011-07-29T09:23:00.003+08:00

[kredit to adik]

dapat tiket weyh p tengok bola kat Stadium...

....Makmal Komputer Kakitangan, UiTM Lendu je! Kerja tetap kerja weyh. Rezeki mesti cari yang halal, tak gitu?

p/s: Tahniah Harimau Malaya, you guys have done your best!

wordless wednesday

2011-07-27T07:42:00.001+08:00

1st attempt kelim curry puff (read: gedik gila perempuan nie, karipap sudah). Not that bad huh?

the path I choose

2011-07-21T07:36:00.002+08:00

p/s: I never thought that one day I will be an educator. Moga Allah permudahkan jalan ini.

One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.

- Anonymous

malang tidak berbau [malang ke?]

2011-07-21T06:59:00.004+08:00

gambar mungkin tak cukup tragis. tapi tragis sebenarnya.

Semalam 20/07/2011, around 9.35 a.m. cik Nam miss K telah terlibat dengan satu kemalangan kecil akibat kecuaian pemandu lain (read: it's not our fault). Al-kisah, ada sebuah Saga Aeroback warna biru yang berada di depan Cik Nam cuba overtake a lorry but dalam keadaan teragak-agak. Then, bila cubaan overtake agak gagal, all of sudden kadar kelajuan kereta tersebut berkurangan dan berhenti secara tiba-tiba di sebuah simpang and tanpa memberi signal, kereta tersebut memasuki simpang. Akibat ketidakbijaksanaan pemandu kereta tersebut, Cik Nam telah break secara mengejut. Syukur tak langgar kereta depan, tapi kereta Gen2 belakang di pandu oleh seorang Ustaz tidak berjaya mengawal kenderaan maka tercium bontot Cik Nam. Bumper Cik Nam yang menunggu masa untuk rebah ke bumi akhirnya terkulai juga. Yang lebih menyakitkan hati, pemandu kereta Saga tersebut berhenti seketika di simpang, menoleh ke arah tempat kejadian dan berlalu pergi (bongok bukan?)

But, there is always a silver lining behind every cloud. Syukur Alhamdulillah, semua selamat.Ustaz yang memandu Gen2 sgt baik and wanted to pay everything, which means Cik Nam akan dapat bumper baru. Itulah hikmah di sebalik kejadian. Besides, we are actually planning to Sagil today, but then the trip has to be canceled due to this. May be ada hikmah kan? :)

Moral of the story: Biar pakai kereta murah tapi mentaliti dan cara pemanduan kena berhemah! :)

life saviour

2011-07-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

masa kecik2 dulu, bapak berlari2 turun tgga and peluk bila dia dengar bunyi lampu pecah kat bawah and dia tahu anak dia yang penakut ini ada kat bawah. Yes, my father knows his daughter the best dan saya tak pernah rasa tak selamat whenever I with him though he is not a super hero.

nafsu serakah

2011-07-12T12:21:00.001+08:00

I was so inspired with my friend's 365 project noure and decided to have mine early this year.

Unfortunately, i do not have enough time to transfer all the pictures from my BB (yes I use my BB since I do not have any digital cameras) and has stumbled upon this wonderful gadget in which is ideal for my project. But the problem that time was how to find this, but today, i found this website that sells this gadget in Malaysia!

*pengsan*

please visit this website, YOU WILL DROOL!

http://www.theclickshop.net/products/pick-digital-camera/

P/S: GAJI CEPATLAH MASUK!

penakut

2011-07-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

Sumpah saya takut bila berfikir perihal masa depan saya.

Tapi saya pujuk hati saya supaya selalu yakin dengan ketentuan-Nya.

Bersangka baiklah, kerana Dia Maha Mengetahui.

masalah mental

2011-07-09T17:00:00.002+08:00

Everyone speaks and no body listens. That's the problem. Semua rasa dia saja yang betul.

p/s: konon tahu cara berkomunikasi yang betul. Tahi.

eat to live or live to eat?

2011-07-03T20:54:00.002+08:00

I have to lose at least 14 pounds if I want to be a mother.

Have to. Period.

This is me, 2 years ago. I want this back :'(